I am worried that I am making half-assed decisions. Mostly, I worry that I have decided to go to this MAT program simply because it will keep me under my parents' wings and give me time to stall. Almost immediately after I'd decided to go to school, I got invited to apply for two amazing jobs. I decided not to apply (or even stopped the interview process) because... well... I'd already made up my mind, hadn't I?

I feel myself going for the path of least resistance, flowing downhill, and slowly carving myself a canyon.

I can justify my decisions just as well as the next person, but I still feel like I've fucked up. I still feel like I'm cheating myself.

And so I wonder, if I'm still asking myself, "Am I doing the right thing?" does it mean the answer is "No"?