SEAC is being intense. I think we are beginning to be burnt out on this whole Power Vote thing. Our goals are now more intimidating than motivating. Some of the roles we delegated out are being neglected, so we are reabsorbing responsibilities, which is a total bummer. Oh well. We'll work the kinks out eventually, I suppose.

I headed to Acorn this weekend with Elizabeth. We didn't have class Monday or Tuesday, so we made the best of our 4-day weekend. It was lovely. The leaves were changing colors. The acorns were falling on the metals roofs and scaring the bejeezus out of us. The weather was terrific, and the people were, of course, wonderful. Paul and I decided to try intimacy again on somewhat different terms, and it seemed to go well. I enjoyed my weekend thoroughly. It was just so happy and beautiful. I think I would like to intern at Acorn this summer to see whether I like it for amounts of time longer than weekends.

I already talked with my mother about interning there, and it went surprisingly well. Elizabeth and I had dinner with her Tuesday night on our way back to school. She took us out to eat. We gorged ourselves. It was good to see her, and the food was great. I also picked up winter clothes from my parents' house, and I'm sure those will come in handy later.

I submitted my application for an absentee ballot this morning. (In plenty of time, right?) I filled it out in my MD plants class and walked it down to the Post Office. I used the last of my Christmas stamps from last year. You know, the ones that look kind of knitted and have cutesy holiday things on them. This one had a reindeer. It was only for 41 cents, and I had a sneaking suspicion that this wasn't enough. I popped my head into the Post Office to inquire about postage, and lo and behold the price has been raised to 42 cents. I didn't have a penny on me, but the guy behind the counter slapped a 1 cent stamp on my envelope said he'd cover it. People are lovely.

I emailed Heather last night. I was proud of myself. I felt all mature and stuff. Opening a dialog and whatnot, you know. I figure we have a lot to talk about, what with Sarah and Paul. Her response sort of overwhelmed me, but I'll figure out how to answer it soon enough. Paul was online (and CCed on the email exchange) so I asked him for advice, and WHAM! he told me he was considering dating Heather again. This was something of a blow. We haven't discussed it yet. That will happen sometime tonight. I am anxious. I cried a bit earlier, which I suppose needed to happen but still isn't a good thing.

I am disappointed. One of the main reasons I was willing/excited to engage intimately with Paul again was his decision to break up with Heather. It was such a good decision. He felt good about it, or at least that's what he expressed. I didn't perceive their relationship as being healthy or happy, and I was so glad when he ended it. Good judgment. I was attracted once more.

And now this. He'd better have some very rational reasons why he wants to get back with her, and why he thinks their relationship will be better this time. I mean, he can do what he wants. He is his own person. But I'm not sure I want to deal with this again. Depending on how things go tonight, I may be reassessing whether I want to be in a relationship with him.

I told myself this year would be better. I am resolved to make that my reality.